Read but forgive me for my digression… sorry :(

These past few days, I seemed to feel very edgy and restless.

I don’t know why. Tried to find the cause or causes.. but I couldn’t zoomed in into one particular thing. perhaps it was a ‘mish-mash’ of all…

Maybe I was so stressed out by my works. Yeah, my project’s completion time is a month away. Of course I have a lot of works to catch up besides the daily interruptions from my site people.

Sometime they pissed me off. Site matters should have to be settled on site with the Consultant’s Resident engineer and CoWs. But they keep on pestering me with matters, which sometimes I feel a very simple matter. Yes, I am not an Engineer but based on my experience and pure logic, those things can be simply ‘tackled’.

Sometimes I want to shout “Oh common guys!! Why can’t you all settle these simple issues??”. “Why do you all have to come back to me? Yes, yes I can help you all to solve it but my time for my REAL works is being pushed aside, just to help you all!!” – ha ha.. that’s my inner consciousness speaking, but it will never be heard by them. But I really don’t want to let that ‘inner feelings’ to go out… maybe not now.

But frankly, even with these problems and my inner feelings, I really do don’t feel stressed actually.. That’s why I am puzzled why I feel restless.. Sometimes the heart pounds like somebody who just completed a 100 metre race!! Crazy!!

Perhaps it’s because of my own doing also. You see, I am quite a positive person. I tried to see the good sides of any bad things. If possible I want to draw out every little bit of happiness in a sad situation. I tried to search the light at the end of every dark paths I walked in this life.

Because of that perhaps, my mind always be positive for every breath I take. But my body – or inner feelings – doesn’t quite concur with what my mind is trying to do. So, sometimes things get quite complicated and in the end cause a real mess inside. Perhaps that makes me feel edgy and restless without reasons.. hmm

Ah well.. just writing something to get my mind sorted out..

See ya friends.. hope you all have a great day today

And just to inform you all, today is the first anniversary of my Dad’s passing. May his soul be in peace with the Lord.

Yes, I do miss him. Whenever there is a gathering at home or even at my relatives place, he will always be the person who makes everyone cheerful especially the young ones – my niece and nephews. But for this past one year, without him around the house when I visit my mom.. it seems very ‘different’. I sometimes feel empty. Poor Mom, he is alone at the house.. guess I missed him so much…

Well, I guess I have to accept that he has gone now to a better place for him, away from all the hassles of every day human life and problems. Even more, he now has been released from the pain he endure for almost a year before eventually succumbed to it..

I can’t go on writing this… I am in tears now if I think more and more of my Dad.. shishhh.. oh man..

I initially wanted to write about my edginess and restlessness… but…I digress.. sorry

Ha ha.. forgive my digression friends…

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JJ’s first drawings or writings..

These are JJ’s very first drawings or writings at slightly less than a few weeks into his 2 years age.. ha ha.. done on his Papa’s birthday.. perhaps it was his gift to his Papa.. haha

You may notice that the papers are ‘crunched’, it’s because I was fighting to get the paper from him before he tear them apart ha ha

What amazes me is that he is holding the pen or pencil in a way adults do.. holding with two fingers. I don’t know where he learn it because we never taught him hw to hold a pen or pencil..

He love to use a pen but I only give him pencil. It’s because when he is done with his artworks on paper, he will continue his drawings on his palms, legs and face!!! LOL

Worthless Architect Firm…

I nearly died laughing at this particular Architect firm today, of whom – well, as you all already know – I really despise with.

Today we had a meeting with the Client in regards to Extension of Time. There are three projects with three teams of consultants. This particular worthless Architect firm was lucky because they are number two to do presentations.

Okay, maybe I am a bit harsh in my words… but I tell you, this Architect doesn’t even know how to do a presentation. Even my nieces and nephews know how to do a presentation. So that makes them worthless.

Lucky – because they were the second team to do a presentation. So they manage to “copy” entirely how the first team did their presentation. Yes, they did just that. Lucky there was a white board, so they just draw their presentation on the white board which reminds me when I was doing some lecturing in my early working days. Buruknya!!

You see – this Architect firm – comes empty handed. Okay lah, not really. But they came with only pieces of papers and documents. The other consultant team are equipped with a notebook, of which they just turn on and ta da – there goes their very detailed presentation!!!

As for this worthless Architect firm – when it was their time to present – the wife just go to the white board and starts drawing whatever they want to present and in the full glare of the crowd, it was very obvious that they have just drawn up the presentation on a piece of paper – last minute. And I have said earlier, the presentation was copied entirely from the first team. Lucky the first team ‘style’ is very simple. Imagine if the 3trd team presented first – their presentation was really detailed that doing last minute ‘copying’ as what the worthless Architect firm did, would be impossible. Lucky them.

Lucky there are no competition for presentation.. hahaha.. they would have come last place.

Last time I complained that this Architect firm couldn’t even write a proper letter. The other day, they wrote again replying to our letter and their answer is laughable – we wrote about something else and they replied totally a different thing. I read what I have written and wondered how come these so-called professionals can’t even answer a simple question, which even a kid can understand.

Today, they can’t even do a proper presentation to the Client.

What I labelled them is harsh but they are IMHO a worthless Architect firm!!

The Principal also is truly worthless. I have been coming for the meeting numerous times and he still doesn’t know me. This morning, we met before the meeting. He look hard at me.. and I already know he don’t recognise me. Then he said “Ahh.. you’re the one who likes to write us many letters..”

I wanted to told him this “Yes. It is me. It also good for you so that you can practice how to write and answering letters.. since you don’t even know how to..” hahaha… but I didn’t because I am just “makan gaji punya orang”.

I’ve written countless letters, be it a complicated one or simple letters. And mind you, practice make perfect. My ex-boss once advise me to really give a thought to what we write, even though how simple it is, as a letter can have many consequences..

Well. What a worthless Architect firm!!! I wonder why they still get projects…

Time flies fast for me…

Time flies really really fast for me.. and I mean really really fast like a speeding Kancil along the Penampang by-pass road..

Can you imagine, I usually come early to the office, around 745am like that, and as soon as I turn my PC on, I will be engrossed in whatever I want or need to do.

Suddenly when I ‘awoke’ from whatever I am doing.. it’s already noon!!! Time for lunch and rest!! Wow!!

Sometimes I told myself like “Eh? baru belek-belek drawings, sudah tengahari? Belum buat apa-apa pun..”..

And now.. we are already at the end of March!! I feel like January 1^st was last week!!. Of course, most people including myself, will be very happy when the month’s end comes very very fast. Ha ha, all ‘makan gaji’ people will surely understand what I mean…

Perhaps, this was down to the tonnes of works I needed to clear off. Some more, my project’s completion date is in a month’s time.. arrgghhhhh!!!

Sometimes I wish I can slow down time.. ha ha ha.. but thank God that He never give me any special power.. otherwise I will abuse it… ha ha ha

Oh well, I have to do what I have to do… time doesn’t wait for me… I have no choice

(BUT… there is goodness that time flies fast.. - EVIL GRIN.. hehehe – one week school holiday is coming to an end and how I wish all teachers out there feel “oh cepatnya satu minggu berlalu.. belum puas cuti…” hehehe… and this goes especially to Chegu Carol… hahahaha (evil laughter!!!)

Jahatnya sia kannn… J